Sunday, August 28, 2011

what issues!?

Apparently all it takes for me to do something completely against my nature is to get my favorite men in a room and pout me between them...as close as they could get.

OMG IT WAS AMAZING! It only lasted a few seconds but SERIOUSLY: best few seconds of my life!

Misha was gorgeous and Jensen been hot all day...put them together and it's my own personal Heaven. Put myself between them and its ecstasy.

I was planning on just having a regular photo-op with me between them, my arms around them and one of theirs around me, but people in front of me were hugging Jensen with Misha at their back. I'd thought about it with Misha and Seb...honestly hadn't crossed my mind with Jared and Jensen, but with THEM!

No other option. I had to be done.

Jensen's shirt was VERY silky...on my cheek. Misha put a hand on my shoulder and I'm pretty sure his leg was tight against mine...I know I felt pressure back there and as dirty as my mind gets, I'm sticking to leg; unless nip/tuck held more truth than we know...

Holding Jensen and Misha holding me...my ultimate Dean/Cas fantasy right there...and it happened...instinctually. Honestly, I don't know what came over me, but I knew what I wanted and went for it. Thinking on it, that is exactly how I'd always imagined it. Never, EVER going to forget this moment! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

breakfast & photo-ops

I wrote this earlier, but my computer wasn’t working well. It overheated last ngiht and takes a while to turn on again, so I’ll post this now.

Oh right, the breakfast! Didn' write that out earlier, so just to keep things in order I'll do it now:


Is it bad that In only remembered because I can't stop thinking about Craig Ferguson?

Anyway, for not being near the stage and having a table number of 32, the seats were actually pretty perfect. I was in the back and able to stand up for photos and the stage was directly in front of me!

Jensen was beautiful and Jared had a beanie - underneath, his hair was a mess. He was also sweating like crazy because apparently he does that in the morning after a shower and Jensen has to deal with it.

OF COURSE I had just watched Wednesday's episode of The Late Late Show where Craig Ferguson only had his new hairstyle for two days because he discovered that using gel means taking a shower every morning. Before his new look, his shower was only "armpit, armpit, junk, bum". Hearing him say that caught me completely off guard and had my laughing my ass off for..well, it's still going on obviously, lmao!

Anyway, I took a lot of pictures and listened to everything they said, but I couldn't tell ya what or when...I'm sure there'll be videos up in no time.

During the photo-ops, I had enough time to jot down everything that happened between sets.
Jensen Ackles:
K - Hi
J - Hi
K - Can I have a hug?
J - Sure

This is just enough of  a conversation with him for me to die happy! He’s so beautiful and I love his voice…especially directed at me! His shirt was silky and OMG just to touch him.

This brings to question, why was I so okay with meeting JENSEN ACKLES and having met Misha 8 times and counting, I freeze up all weekend!?

Well, one explanation is having met Misha 8 times I’m starting to feel a a little stalker-ish. I mean, I am, but it’s more fun when only I know it; once they know, it gets awkward and  feel weird, even though it’s most likely one-sided. But I respect Misha too much to have him think of me like that, even in brief meetings. The boat was great! Perfect! But photo-ops and autographs is a little much I guess, even though I had my camera pointed at him throughout the entire cruise.

Meeting Jensen was easy since I never had before. &lt;3 Plus, he’s really laid back and reserved…nothing like Misha at cons.

Jared &amp; Jensen:
Took one pic between the two of them, Cliff came over to talk to Jared so I got Jensen to myself for a sec, then I had them both wrapped around me in a really tight hug that I cold still feel even back at the auditorium.

Jared’s awesome and Jensen’s hot!

Oh, and Jared put his face right next to mine to hear me better.

Jared:
My first point was proven by this encounter. He said hi and I asked for a hug. Awkward…but we thanked each other and he called me sweetie.

First “babe” and now “sweetie”…jared is well on his way to becoming my favorite. Although Jensen is still hotter and Misha’s funny and sexier than them both…

cocktail party musings...

I know I'm drunk not only because I finished off my little bottle of Malibu and had a rum & coke at the party...but because this ache I've developed for Craig Ferguson and the embarrassment/self hatred/all things involving Misha tonight have disappeared.

I think the problem was I've been sober for too long. I think much clearer when under the influence, about Supernatural anyway...and that's only half the time, but still, it happens. And it did tonight. I might've been driving myself crazy about all this but Misha doesn't care! I don't mean that in a bad way, it's just what I was unable to say is only affecting me, he doesn't have a clue and meets so many people, chances are he doesn't even remember me.

My previous rant was just a major overreaction I'm sorry you had to read (if you chose to continue when I told you to stop) and me going too long without a serious amount of liquor. When I get home, I'm having a Captain Jack...might even spring for True Blood and vodka (only way to drink it - and man is it strong!)

Anyway, I'm much calmer now and definitely more myself. I guess these two girls with Silver passes got in to the Gold dessert party by sucking up to Russ Hamilton. My companions for the night said it was a lap dance and lack of underwear, and this really pissed them off. I get it, we spent the money and they didn't but if these girls can find a way in, more power to them! I didn't get in a huff, and thought a little less of them for ding so cuz it's really no big deal. We're all here to have fun and I guess I kinda forgot that...

SO, the cocktail party was a bit of a let down but at least I wasn';t sitting alone. This woman I met in our Gold row recognized me and I asked if I could sit with her. They all reminded me of Lianne, so I felt right at home, AND they took the attention off me...which was okay for a while until Misha came around and they all talked to him and I said nothing - again reminding me of Lianne and why we spend so little time together anymore but I really just need to up my game because I honestly need her in my life more than I usually let on...

Everyone visited every table for the few minutes allowed. Apparently it was better previous years, but I'll take what I can get. Seb sat next to me and I was one of the first in the group hug he initiated before continuing on to other tables. It was fun seeing Russ again since I missed him this morning. Steven Williams sat next to me as well, and put his arm around the back of my chair the one on his other side in farewell.

...my GAWD I write better drunk, too!

Anyway, I'm finishing up an episode of Craig Ferguson I started before the party and going to bed. Jared and Jensen tomorrow, and I have to get up extra early to deal with the headache I know I'll be suffering through all day... Whenever I pictured meeting them, hungover was never an option. Oh well.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

day 2

Okay, let's start with the best part of the day: I got to sleep 'til 10! I wanted to see Russ Hamilton at 10:25, but I was a tad hungover with a pretty intense headache. Tylenol was involved. Along with Mountain Dew and Cheerios. Thankfully, I was well enough by Dick and Matt's panel and did my photo-op with Matt and autograph with Richard.

I had about an hour to kill, so I came back to the room and recapped the events leading up to today while a maid cleaned my room. After that, I'm pretty sure I was outta the room for the longest time yet beginning with Sebastian Roche. He was AMAZING! ...pretty much an English Craig Ferguson only hornier. I actually like him better than his character, lol.

Misha came on as he always does, through a question to the guest before him, lmao. But Seb didn't leave easily; he through Misha's "Big D*ck" at him, then Misha pretended to make out with Seb and they were spanking each other. When Seb did leave, he came right back bumped Misha bodily...he was understandably a little distracted for the first few minutes knowing Seb was back there and expecting him to do something at any minute.

The panel was fun, Misha was beautiful and I found the perfect setting on my camera early on in his panel (now I'll be ready for the boys tomorrow! =)

After that was the pictures. They took forever and my day hit a few bumps that lead to my current buzzed-headed-for-drunk state.

The pic with Matt was fine, mostly because it's just a souvenir, something not as important as all the others. Misha...even though I've taken three other photos with him, spent an entire weekend in New Jersey with him, one day in Boston and 3hrs on a boat just the night before...I still managed to freak out.

They checked our tickets in the hall and then wanted to take them in the room. I didn't know I'd need it again and I couldn't find it in my bag...by the time I did, I was already flustered, then the people in front of me didn't leave immediately and the photographer waved  me on anyway, so I got even more frazzled.

I was gonna ask Misha for a hug because I HATE frontal shots, but I didn't. I froze up and I know the picture is hell. I debated getting another one, thought he might think it weird to see me again, went over what I might say: none of it funny or ironic, just facts and BORING and all the things I hate myself for. I'm not witty and he's the most beautiful man I've ever met.

I eventually did buy another one (I'll be spending at least one night in the back of my car now...) and got the hug I wanted.

Then I took a picture with him and Sebastian and that felt weird, idk why...I was in a weird place. The pic with Seb was easy, but so is he, lol.

One day, I'll come back and be crazy but for now...I'm me.

I then had my photo-op with Richard and that was easy, too. I didn't even ask for a hug, it just kinda happened. maybe it's the height all these other guys have on me, Richard's my height and really stands out with the rest of them...

I came back to the room to pee and drop off my camera before hitting the ballroom for autographs. I used my Gold seat to get outta there faster, but maybe I should've sat a bit longer...might've actually had a conversation with Misha that way, or froze up even more.


I wanted to thank him for the amazing night and tell him it was a really nice surprise and maybe bring up Boston from our conversation...

Instead, when he asked me what was going on I said "not much", then got an autograph for one of my friends.

I also got my Gold ticket signed, which was the whole purpose of the signing for me anyway, lol.

I felt really good about the personalized autograph, even though her name was spelled wrong. Seb spelled my name two different ways and neither were right...

Turn back now, really this is pathetic and I didn't wanna get drunk this weekend but that's where this is headed...

I might be talking light of it now, but my behavior really annoys the hell outta me. I was SET on saying what I wanted, then I didn't...I fell back on my usual response to anybody who happens to ask when Misha matters more than almost anybody to me! I'm so set in my defenses that when I wanna actually make a connection with someone, I can't because its too foreign to me and I just stick to what I know.

So, I had a few swigs outta my little Malibu bottle and hit the street for Denny's mozzarella sicks to lessen the chance of a major hangover tomorrow and allow myself to drink more at the party tonight.

I've been back for about an hour, the sticks were cold and the bottle almost gone. I'm thinking some chips, Oreos with peanut butter and finish off the bottle and I'll be good to go. =)

Of course now I kinda wish I hadn't had all that rum, but what's done is done and I should probly drink that thought right outta my head which shouldn't take long. I've been driving for about a week straight and must've lost some of my tolerance for Malibu to get me even the slightest bit drunk...

Hopefully I do better with the boys tomorrow...

day 1

I know it's outta order, but I had to document Misha's Cruise when it was still fresh in my mind since I'd been drinking and it was probly the most amazing experience of my life. <3

Anyway, I stayed up for The Late Late Show and slept way too late. I didn't even hear my first alarm. I figured it was no big deal, only missed Alona Tal and Chad Lindberg but I'd seen Alona in New Jersey and Chad goes to a lot of them so chances are I'd see him again.

I did manage to make it to Richard Speight's panel - sans camera XO...and leave my Cruise ticket there. I was in line for an autograph with Richard and as I was getting my ticket out realized that Misha's wasn't there. I checked my room first since it was closer, then ran back to the auditorium knowing it wouldn't be there but still hoping it was.

It was.

Also, it's a good thing Richard wasn't leaving and there was another chance at an autograph and photo-op today.

So, having missed Richard, I figured I'd go back to the liquor store that had been closed the day before. I got on the elevator before realizing it's direction and when my fellow occupant asked if I was going down, I only loked at him outta the corner of my eye as I would anyone else but had to do a double take.

It was Chad Lindberg.

So I said hi, he asked my name, shook my hand and introduced himself, then he even hit the Lobby button for me on his way out (21st floor ;-).

I smiled the entire way to the liquor store, called Michela because this was bigger than a text but her phone was off. So I texted everybody anyway and called home because texting just wasn't enough. Thsis was HUGE!

I got my small bottle of Malibu to help calm me down to actually talk to Misha a little bit later, then came back to the room to figure out what to wear. I now have my outfits planned for the next two days. =)

That took a little longer than I thought and I didn't have time to eat anything before getting on the bus. So, I took a shot anyway and hoped for the best. It hit me pretty hard at first, but rum isn't all that strong unless it's 100 proof Captain Morgan's mixed with Jack Daniels. Now THAT'S a drink.

But I kinda wanna remember this weekend from more than just blogs, so I'm taking it easy. Plus, I wouldn't be able to finish it off before crossing the border and being stopped once is enough, thank you.

The Malibu started wearing off pretty quick and the Cruise was great, Misha was awesome, made it fun for everybody and we all had an amazing time.

Friday, August 26, 2011

misha's cruise

We left the hotel a little late since people were getting autographs from Richard Speight, Chad Lindberg and Alona Tal. I would have been one of those people, but I lost my ticket for the cruise and quickly dashed around the hotel trying to find it. Thankfully I did. (But apparently there was one left, lol)

The dock wasn't too far and Misha waved from inside the boat as we all piled on and followed him to the top deck.

Now, I've been on a boat twice, maybe three times in my whole life and know for a fact that being inside is not good for me: rooms are not supposed to move. Outside is fine, though and that's where Misha stayed for a good hour or so, making a point to say hi to everyone and have a little conversation.

The water was a little rough here and there, so I either sat in the chairs provided or hung onto the rail. Apparently Misha can get seasick and this wasn't one of his best ideas. But he was fine, I was fine...everything was great. Although I didn't partake in the buffet, even for dessert.

I took alot of pictures, he made his way over to my side, leaned over the rail right next to me and stood in front of me for a while. He smells really good. And he's adorable; can't believe I forgot to mention that.

He went in for the buffet and people followed him. Some stayed on the deck and that's exactly what I did. When they announced cheesecake, I tried, but the water had gotten rough and I high tailed it right back outta there.

Then I went to the bottom beck to see Misha again. By this time it was getting dark and I hadn't spoken a word to Misha, so I went inside and slowly made my way over to him, frequently booking it right back out again because being inside was too much.


Misha was looking for people he hadn't talked to yet and I'd been making my way closer for just that reason. He shook my hand and introduced himself so I did the same. He asked where I was from and he liked that it was Boston. Asked if I'd been to the con there and when I said yes, he tried to recognize me. Said it was great to see me again regardless... Then I told him I drove here and he thought I was kidding. Then congratulated me on the longest drive here. We shook hands again and he said it was great to see me. <3

Craig who? lol

(I'd been thinking of Craig Ferguson off and on the entire trip and it was really starting to kill my Supernatural buzz...guess I was just in the mood for a crude, lascivious perand that is not Misha...or any of my Supernatural guys actually.)

I happen to walk in at just the right times. Some girl had a tattoo on her right hip and Misha actually lifted her skirt and she pulled her panties down just enough to reveal it...and he touched it.

We had one big group hug at the end and I guess I made a friend on the way back.

All in all, a really great night. Then again, not many people can say they spent 3hrs on a boat with an Angel of the Lord; he is NOT God! I love my Cas...

location tour

Cruising around Vancouver by AIR CONDITIONED bus was a great way to start the weekend. I managed to get up in time for departure, met a few fans and enjoyed the ride to Bordertown. I actually felt like an awful fan for not knowing the significance, but once they sad Frontierland, I was good. Still, I should've known.

Having someone else take the wheel for once was such a relief; especially in Vancoucver where all the speed limits are in km...

Anyway, Bordertown was great! That's where they shot Frontierland, obviously, a few scenes from The Benders and All Hell Breaks Loose Part 1. We were allowed inside the buildings and I got pics of everything. We went into the Sheriff's office and right there was the jail cell Dean put the Phoenix in...that place where director Guy Norman Bee provided us with an amazingly hot picture of our favorite cowboy...

After spending about an hour there, we went to a location they hadn't even filmed at yet set for sometime next week for episode 7.05. In that same area, they also filmed the clinic in Croatoan and the church from 99 Problems. I felt a little better about my fangirling when I thought the buildings looked familiar from Croatoan and noticed the church before anything was said. =)

They stopped the bus at the new location and whoever wanted to take a walk to the others was free to do so. Of course, I did. Even got a pic of where Dean helped Cas outta the basement <3

From there, we passed the hazelnut plantation where they filmed Scarecrow, but they were at the front of the bus and didn't get to my section 'til we'd already pretty much passed it.

That was on our way to the s.6 finale where Dean and Bobby were outside Crowley's place. They parked the bus not too far from where the Impala was flipped and Russ pointed out exactly where that was.

He was a great tour guide, by the way.

Next stop was Bobby's junkyard, and on the way we went through an area that looked a little like the street in Sympathy for the Devil where Sam went down a flight of stairs after being told off by a demon possessed Bobby.

No sooner had I thought hat did we come upon a flight of stairs that was missing something...then passed the ones they used.

At the last minute, Russ decided to take us passed the Studio since Bobby's wasn't too far from there.

Bobby's was fun. I don't think anyone would ever be this ecstatic to tour a junkyard.

We passed by the first location they used as Bobby's house which is now a set in the studio. This was on the way to a location used in the episode Jensen directed this season.

Then is was back to hotel, but on the way we passed a few other locations they'd used, one was used about two weeks ago, that one where they lit up an entire block. I recognized the lights and the street felt right.

I didn't get pics due to the traffic, but I'll find the on set ones and post those instead.

I couldn't have been happier to get back to the hotel. It had been a long day, I hadn't slept much the and I was exhausted. It was an amazing experience, though and I'm so glad I did it. <3

the great north...

It's been a while, but I have loads of time now, so I'll finish up the trip to Vancouver and post daily for VanCon...

One thing I forgot to mention last time was that Oklahoma was a big state and annoyed me to no end, but I had a lot of time to think and wasn't all that thrilled to be leaving Kansas. This passion for the state isn't what it once was, but the idea is still the same: To really do something with my life, I need to get outta Mass.

I don't know if it was the small town, the university or the college guys, but I found myself wondering what majors they offer at KU and if it would be worth it to move all the way to Kansas just because it's famous in my Supernatural circle.

The trip to Vancouver solidified the idea...only not so much Kansas anymore (that was short-lived) but maybe outside of LA... The Late Late Show inspired this one, but not like you'd think. It was the next night and Craig had an intern on the show because she opened the fanhatemail with a powdery white substance which he insists on still calling anthrax. Anyway, she goes to school in AZ for television and film studies...it got me thinking. Then on the Supernatural Location Tour today, Russ Hamilton told us about scouting locations and it seems kinda interesting...

Anyway, it's a half-formed thought because its too complicated to add detail to at this point, but I'll see where it goes.


Saturday, August 20, 2011

westbound...part 1

I've been meaning to blog, really! But it's just soo exhausting and I just haven't had the time. So, here in California, I've sat down and written a few things. It's not much, but it's something. Its only 9pm here, but that's midnight back east and i can't sit like this anymore. This room lacks character as much as table and chairs...and the kitchen freaks me out. Anyway, here's what happened 'til Texas:

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

day one...

I guess I can take a quick second here.

My GOD it's early...lol.